Letting Go

A Reflection on the Divine Feminine

The masculine part of myself wants control. It innocently believes it needs to control. For centuries us humans have labored under the mental conditioning that there is “a separate me who needs to control life.”

That doesn’t feel like it’s working anymore.

The feminine aspect moves in a different way. It seems to be reminding me that everything is love, even the pain, discomfort and repressed emotions, even the apparent chaos of the world, even having one’s personal life completely fall apart.

It seems to be expressing that who I am is the divine, that my true nature is unconditional love, and that there is nothing that needs to be or can be controlled - the belief in duality was just a dream.

The feminine aspect, or at least what temporarily appears like the feminine aspect, doesn’t need to hold on to anything, it knows that love can neither be gained nor lost.

The feminine let’s go of even needing labels like “feminine” and “masculine,” it recognizes that all ideas are just temporary steps on the path to remembering wholeness.

What I feel like I’m learning from the inner feminine aspect is that these many layers of anger, aggression, hatred, fear, craving and attachment that I’m struggling with are all based on ignorance. When I innocently believe that love is separate from me, of course I’m going to be experiencing these intense emotions.

The feminine is offering a very fierce-grace of taking away everything that I thought defined me in order to remind me that love is the true nature of reality. It’s like being painfully reprimanded again and again, “nope, that urge to control isn’t going to work anymore, love is already here.”

And it deeply hurts to let go of that for a time. It can be downright excruciating.

But eventually the pain of letting go turns into the loving gentleness of acceptance that was actually what I always wanted.

I bow in gratitude to the Divine Feminine, thank you for reminding me of the wholeness of life.